“Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.” — Psalm 139:23-24
Sometimes I don’t know what’s going on in me. I don’t know what I am feeling and thus I don’t know what to do or what should I do. And then I just pause and though the world continues to move, I just stay still. What is going on? Suddenly I am lost. What do you feel? What are you thinking? I can’t read your mind. I can’t read your heart. All I can say is: Gah.