When it Ruptures.

Today was not as crazy as the previous day. 2 strokes today, which entitled me to … observe CT scans! YAY. That was the highlight of the day. CT scans! And now I know what it stands for. Computerized Tomography. Another thing, I experienced today which is to me, one of the most nerve wrecking topics: Medical ethics. It was a rare case and a sad case. May God be with the family. I’ve learnt some medical terms after two days of attachment and I am happy. Ben&Jerry’s haven’t contacted me I wanna be a Scooper !!! Super Scooper (ice) creams are gonna freeze me, but I won’t feel cold, like I always do.

Septic Shock

Today was an eye opener. Just like how when you open a can of sardines, you didn’t expect them to be so packed. My first day at NUH Emergency Medicine. Ehhh, I’m not gonna blog so much so as to respect the privacy of the patients. It was really interesting though. I felt a little foreign because of the medical terms they used. But it was really interesting how they looked for symptoms and diagnose. Everything, step by step. I went around with 4 NUS Med year4 students and it was enjoyable. They were nice and they kinda explain things to me. Well, I’ve got lots to talk about but trying to respect privacy here. So… gah. Anyhow, I stood up/walked for the entire day so my legs are aching. Oh well. Day two tomorrow. Anyway, SGH offered me the job, but I’m  not taking it because I really don’t want a full time job anymore.

Went to Jacq’s house after my attachment and chillaxed with korean drama. Then we left for Mcnally street and joined Ann for dinner at 15minutes cafe which is a cool place at Lasalle. Their campus is really cool man.

Super “Trooper” Beams Are Gonna Blind Me.

Trouper? Trooper…

Okay, so I was writing my cover letter for B&J… and I finished the entire letter except for my heading… So I was following the format Marcus Low gave to me and so the heading was as such:

APPLICATION FOR THE POST OF _________

And I was supposed to fill in the post that I was gonna apply for. So I was thinking… What do the ice-cream scoopers call themselves??? My mom replied, “Ice-cream parlor assistant maybe….”. And I asked AmosChen and he thought …

Priscillaaaaa says (8:56 PM):
hello, do you know what the icecream scooper ppl at b&j are called
aмos. serendipity says (8:56 PM):
is this a riddle

He thought it was a joke. Nice one. Anyhow, today we played Cluedo during Youth and then the link to the lesson was that we were supposed to find clues in the Bible -_- Tough man. We’re on Chronicles now and we analyzed the kings. After youth we went to Velocity to eat and then we walked around to look for Isaac’s outdoor stuff. Walked and walked and bumped into LK people. Then went to Harvey Norman to get my cleaning kit. I have many many books to read now. Pastor Mike just gave me a book on discipleship. Oh man tons and tons of books. Then I have to draft my reference letter this week because teachers are lazy.

Oh btw, my super super awesome pretty night photo of the esplanade area is now set as my desktop display because it is so pretty that it looks pretty on big screen. The reflections on the water is MOUTH-WATERING. I can’t help it but Stop & Stare… This is how pretty it is:
Anyhow, I’m almost done with How I Met Your Mother season 3!!! NUH attachment tomorrow!

+ I am so watching Valentine’s Day. Patrick Dempsey!!!!

The Platinum Rule

Attraction; Bargaining; Submission; Perks; Tipping Point; Purgatory; Fall Out; Co-Existence

Today was by far the earliest I have woken up for this week. 9am is early for a sloth like me. Met MattGe at Science Centre at 11am and we toured BodyWorlds Exhibition and the entire Science Centre (Or most of it). I expected BodyWorlds to be more gory but it fell under my expectations and it was just barely acceptable. But nevertheless, still interesting looking at the insides. I enjoyed the Sounds Exhibits at the Science Centre most. Really had fun there. Too bad photography of any kind was banned at the BodyWorlds Exhibit. Photos from yesterday is now free to be browsed on facebook. Edited half of them. I am almost done with the Bible Quiz. I am left with mind boggling questions e.g. Is God fair? Can salvation be lost? And answers have to be supported by the Bible. Gah ah ah ha ha haG. Am writing my cover letter now to prepare to apply to be a trooper at Ben &Jerry’s. Hahahaha. And I enquired about Dailyscoop as well. Awaiting their reply. If Alexandra Hospital doesn’t get back, I no longer want a full-time job because I don’t want it to suck the life out of me. Scooper trooper is fine with me!

Ove[xposu]under.

How could I forget. HOW COULD I FORGET. I can’t believe I wasn’t rushing home. I can’t believe I wasn’t running home. I can’t believe I could even bear to upload my photos first. What is wrong with me. There is Grey’s Anatomy! To think I was ranting to myself last night on how slow people upload Greys onto the net… Stupid me. Even though it’s 12.10am and I have to wake up early to see corpses @ Science Centre tomorrow, it is worth it to stay awake for another 40mins for Grey’s.

So as the video buffers… Let me…
Today was a day of betrayal, because GohYaoYu ditched us for his girlfriend. But well, friends, let’s forgive and forget. Okay, let’s re-wind and restart this paragraph. Today was a day of exposure. Over and Under. Shutter. Long and short.

First stop: Train tracks at Bukit Timah. It is my first outdoor shoot and the weather conditions were like one of the most terrible conditions for an amateur like me because exposure was a huge problem. The tracks photos kinda sucked. And it was so bloody hot under the sun. I was Perspiring Profusely (alliteration yeah?) as I tried my best to figure a suitable aperture and shutter and blah blah blah.

Second stop: GEYLANG. I have never stepped into Geylang in my entire life. So this is my first time. Sometimes I wonder if I am a Singaporean. Never stepped into Geylang, never eaten frog leg porridge, never eaten bak ku teh, never eaten kway chap. I was expecting good photos from the back alleys but well, an amateur like me… what good photos man. My better photos were actually taken at the third stop. As we took photos of the back alleys, we were searching for the nice beef hor fun which was at Lor 9 Geylang. And we were at Lor 19 Geylang >:/ Walk and walk, and our lunch was only at 4pm. I was starving. Starving Marvin (Southpark fans will understand).

Third stop: Esplanade/Merlion. I learnt how to do the ghost effect in the Esplanade carpark. Then we headed out to the bridge and towards the Merlion. Some nice evening and night shots there. Then it was time to eat again. Dinner at Marina Square. Manhattan Fish Market! Then home.

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Anyway, something random, Funny how I sneeze thrice at one go these days. Usually it’s four times at one go.

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Hunt and Cristina likes it rough man.
And I see many things. Many things.

I feel the room Heating Up!

Damnit. Competition’s heating up. I am quite pissed with all the idiots who stole Thiru away… Gah. I didn’t know that the competition is so intense. Based on what Thiru said, alot of my classmates have already grabbed her to write their recommendation letter and so, the hard truth is that she can’t write mine. Nicely done classmates. I am getting Brian Connor now, and if I can’t get him either (I have a bad feeling about this), then I think I will press the panick button and jump down and die. Whhhhhhy! Whhhhy whhy whhhhhhy is everyone so kanchiong.

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So Steady as She Goes!
Let me do some math. The last time I roller-bladed was … probably sec 1 chalet. How many years was it since I last roller-bladed? 5 maybe. I got up at 10.30am but I still wanted to sleep. Ate breakfast at 10.45am and then I got pissed off when I received Thiru’s reply and so I posted the above. Then I bathed and left house to meet Jacq at Bedok. We bus-ed to East Coast and then I rented blades and we started blading at 2.30pm. Hot Hot Hot! The sun was like a giant fireball! So we bladed for 10mins and I had to stop because the guy made it too tight so we sat down, I untied it and then Jacq said “Why is it that she looks like Hsin-Yu?”. Then I said “Huh.” Then she said “OH LOOK! That’s ZhanYi & Hsin-Yu!!!!” And so, coincidentally, Zhanyi and Nina were cycling at ECP too. Nice. So we said Hi and stuff, and continued blading and then turned back and blade for 1 hour. I really sucked at blading and it was kinda stressful trying not to lose my balance. Then we chillaxed at MacDonalds and I couldn’t resist the temptation of the Twister Fries!!! After we regained our energy, left for her place and we wanted to cycle but her bicycle tyres were flat. So we went to play badminton at UluPandan CC instead. Oh, I met Adel on the bus while we were on our way to Jacq’s place btw. And yes, tomorrow I will be going on a photo-taking journey to exercise my DSLR. I need to learn to take good shots. I want to wake up early to go to the gym too and I hope I do. My gym plans have failed since I don’t know when. So have my night-jogging plans. I think when I climb Mt. Kinabalu, I’d just drop dead halfway and roll down.

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Was talking to Nina on msn. Was talking about jobs, how I’m rather unwilling to commit to a full time job right now. It’s kinda the last time that I’d be able to live life so freely. You see, IF I really do become a doctor (and that’s still an “IF”), I won’t have much of a life to live in future. Once I enter Uni, it’s gonna be mug mug mug. And once I’m out, it’s gonna be work work work till you drop. The only thing pulling me back from wanting to be a doctor is the thought of losing a future family. The thought of coming home from work, and feeling so tired to the extent that you just feel like sleeping and doing nothing else. How would your loved ones feel? The only time I get to fully pamper someone in life would most probably be now. Sometimes I also wonder whether lazing around can be considered as living life to the fullest. I mean, I want to do so many things, but some days, I just feel exhausted and I just lay in bed for almost the entire day. Sigh. This is not an emo post, but it’s just me thinking about life. And well, the truth is, I am scared. But I guess everyone is as well. The only difference, I suppose, is that God is and will be with me. Sometimes I also wish, how nice would it be if there is a physical manifestation of God. Then when we’re down or scared, there’s God to lean on. I mean, yeah, we can figuratively lean on God but not physically. Oh well, that’s how Man functions anyway. Only believing and seeing the physical. I guess that’s where faith comes in.

When it’s Wednesday

I woke up at 10.30am, lazed in bed, dragged my feet at 11am and started watching “How to meet a perfect neighbour” as I ate my breakfast. I don’t even know why I am watching that show when there are no handsome dudes or pretty babes. Yay, I found a link to watch “Smile again”. I really think Lee Dong Gun’s voice is very sexy. And he’s really cool. I think he’s the only person who looks cool with eyebags.
HE IS SO COOL.
Wanted to leave house for Esplanade to get the tickets and borrow a vcd from the library there, but then kinda realised the seating sucks so now I have to wait till everyone replies. Nevermind, anyhow I feel like lazing at home today. It’s such a stay-in-bed day. I have yet to complete my Bible Quizzz. Gonna complete it tonight or something. Gah, this might just be the last week I get to laze around like that.

I feel so dumb. For hoping and always hoping. Maybe forgiving. And clinging. And hoping again. And dreaming. Hoping and dreaming that one day it will come again. Then that phrase just keeps ringing in my head. Especially the word “Never”. Never. Hoping. Never. Dreaming. Never. Never. Never.

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Roller blading roller blading! In a few hours time Whoohoo.

Let’s not talk about death.

Will you tell people if you know that you’re going to die?
(My answer: No.)

I see no point, because people will start treating you differently. What they do, will be all out of sympathy. It will not be what they truly want to do/feel for you. And after watching the leedonggun show with samho in her hostel today, I think what the female lead said was very true.

“The saddest thing on earth is that when you die, the world continues to move on”

No one waits for you. You may get mourners, two or three or so, but how long will they mourn for you. And even as they mourn, the world continues to move on. It’s really a narcissist world.

Anyhow, Ambrose sent me a powerpoint filled with all the funny crap answers and I found this one particularly funny. Not that I am sick in the head or whatsoever, but … Hahaha. It’s really funny.
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Almost forgot to update. Interview with SGH was a pain in the ass today btw. I made my way to SGH and realised it’s not the hospital building that they want me to go to but the office building which is at jalan bukit merah. So i cabbed there from SGH. I was first to arrive, almost the last to be interviewed. GAH. I waited and waited. Stomach growled and couldn’t stop growling. The person who interviewed me could pass off as chiabeeteck’s twin sister. They resemble each other in terms of both appearance and behavior and temperament. Uncanny.

Shuttle speed and Aperture.

Woke woke woke up woke woke up today at nine nine nine o clock clock nine o clock. Poke poke poker poke poker face is st-st-st-st-uck in my head. Woah-ooahh-ooahh–woah. Went for dental appointment at 11am and it was real quick because he just polished my teeth. I walked around the area trying to find the bakery shop but IT’S GONE. So I don’t know where and when I’ll get my pineapple filling, but anyhow, I walked past this shop and I bought a kite! After that I went home, ate lunch and started watching the korean drama Jacq lent to me. I still want to watch Smile Again. I’m in a really lethargic mood today. After lunch, I wrecked open my DSLR and started fiddling with it. I need experience. I need to go out and take lots and lots of photos and try different things. And finally, everyone has more or less RSVP-ed me. I was so freakin pissed yesterday lah. And guess what RSVP stands for? Bet no one really knows what it stands for. Let me teach you some french.

RSVP stands for Repondez S’il Vous Plait. Pronounced as Rare-pon-day See Vu Plair.

And oh well, I have a job interview at SGH tomorrow late morning. Then I’d be heading to Samho’s hostel to have some fun. And I just found out that I’m on the waiting list for BSF and so I am kinda sad. Oh well. But that means I get to stay at Samho’s hostel till quite late at night since I stay so near. Lady Gaga is really stuck in my head. Damnit. Gah Gah Oo Lala, caught in a bad romance.

A chasing after the wind.

Meh. Today woke up early because was playing for worship. Worship went well today I must say. And I love our version of “Lord I lift your name on high”. Drums damn fun. Anyhow, today was specs day, so everyone in the band wore specs for worship. Heh.

After service we had EGM which was really a bore. After which, my parents and I headed down to Sim Lim Square to get the DSLR. And so, not only did I get a DSLR, I got another lens, a flash, extra battery, a tripod, and a wide angle lens. Really excited. Then my parents dropped me off at the National Library where I borrowed 4 medical ethics books and 1 on photography. I wanted the borrow the vcd on Simon Birch but it’s in Esplanade Library. I sat down in the library to read a little, then I made my way to VCH for samho’s concert. After the concert we went to Marina Square to eat at MOF (Ministry Of Food). I have lots to read now. Need time to fiddle with my camera tomorrow and many days ahead. Dental appointment tomorrow and I am dreading it. Then I’ll head over to the baking store to get pineapple filling to make pineapple tarts for CNY! Yay!