Whatever that is ideal, whatever that is fantasy, remains as it is. For what is ideal, lives far away from reality. And here I am, right smacked in reality, so much so that I wished I never returned. All these months praying for my parents… all futile. I know God is listening, but it seems like it just got worse. And yes, I only blog when I am deep in the pits. That means, I am in the pits. It’s too easy to walk away from all these. It’s too easy to fly back and never return. Maybe that’s what I should do. But escapism seems like something a coward would do. And I guess, God has His purpose for putting me wherever I am. And since I’m back “home” right now, I pray and ask for patience and love. I don’t know what I can do. I don’t know what’s the best thing to do either. Sometimes I feel like Paddy Clarke. Caught in between. And then, there’s church. Going back to my church, funny how I don’t exactly feel at home at all. I felt like I never left at all. Good or bad… I don’t know. But this church… it needs revival for sure.
Since my return, all that I’ve seen only points me to one fact: Everything and everyone needs God.
Gonna make that tomorrow! 
Need alot of luck though. Anyhow, the rain didn’t die down so we just continued walking in the rain. We wanted to take a bus to Bondi from Clovelly but instead we ventured out to walk via an alternative route and we walked through the lovely cemetery! So nice. We found a new route 
Cos we started wine tasting right from the morning and I drank on an empty stomach. We went whale watching too!!! Saw humpback whales! Oh, and we caught the fireworks at Darling Harbour twice! Love it! Photos are all up on facebook!
